Monday, August 30, 2010


My dear Miss Ruby tagged me in a post....the tag is to answer these questions:

1. What is your all-time favorite movie (the one that you can watch over and over, when just hearing it in the back ground is enough to imagine exactly what is happening on the screen)? This is tough for me to answer as I love TONS of movies...but I guess I'd have to say...hmmm...Step Brothers. It's stupid, ridiculous humor, but we love it and quote it daily!

2. Tell me about one Halloween costume you remember wearing as a child. I remember being a giant green M&M. I went trick or treating with my friends and they were all witches or Spice Girls...and here I am, BIG and GREEN in all it's glory!

3. Why did you start blogging? I needed an outlet. I never really stuck with it until this year when I really found my "voice".

4. What makes you happy? Stability. I would give anything for it right about now too...

5. If you were able to go back in time, where would you go and why? (I'll have to join Ruby on this one) The early - mid 50's. I, too, love the simplicity of the era.

6. What was the last thing you bought at the grocery store? Tortillas...we love them...

7. How do you take your coffee? (If you don’t drink coffee … wait, let me get a handle on that … YOU DON’T DRINK COFFEE??? Ok, if you don’t drink coffee, then what is your favorite beverage?) If I drink it, it's the fancy stuff...and I like it with soy milk and caramel...haha

8. Brag a little . . . tell me about a recent RAK (random act of kindness) that you took part in. Umm...we have a friend coming from California tomorrow. I've opened my home to him to stay as long as he needs to. The real kicker is that my home is 420 square feet and there's now going to be 3 adults, 1 baby, 1 cat and 1 dog in it! Whew!

Friday, August 27, 2010


Steven weighed Marlee via holding her...

Shes a cuddly 13.5lbs at 12 weeks old!

I just love her!

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Mommy and Me

This past weekend we had some more fun in the park while watching Daddy play softball! Marlee's Godmother Lori spent the day with us! (hence why I finally have Mommy and Me pictures)

All smiles...

I love Lori's face in this one...too funny!


The best!!! She's my favorite! (note her obsession with grabbing things the bottom of her dress)

Those hands are the MOST interesting thing these days!

Softball must be pretty, she's getting so good at sitting up!

Yep, there's Daddy being his silly self. If you look closely you'll see how torn up his knee is!

Who can resist toes in the grass!

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

What is it about Tuesday's?!

Soooo...check in...umm...seriously, didn't lose an ounce! Ha...I guess that's good, cause I haven't really been trying. (I know, shame on me). I don't have my measuring tape on me, so I can't check to see if my body is rearranging sorry...but at least I'm still stuck at 193.6...

Despite all the terrible things that can happen one week from now, I'm in a GREAT mood!

I didn't sleep extra long...

I didn't lose any weight...

I didn't even do 10 pushups or anything to boost my mood!

I think I'm just doing dandy with life right now. With not knowing where I'll be in 2 weeks time...not knowing how I'll be surviving with another adult in our tiny little house...I guess I'm living by this quote:

"Worrying is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do, but doesn't get you anywhere." - Anon.

I wish I had a great picture to post now...but I forgot my stinking memory card! Figures! I have some awesome ones of myself and Marlee that Lori took this weekend! I can't wait to share Mommy and Me pictures for once! I guess it's going to have to wait yet another day! Sorry!

Friday, August 20, 2010

Screw Friday the 13th!!!

Today was bad-luck day!!! I think we're going to be superstitous about Friday the 20th's now!!

It started off with a car wreck...

Nothing really terrible, but it's still never a good thing!

Steven was backed into by a kid who didn't bother to look in his rearview mirrors (he admitted that to the cops) and so his hitch smashed in our driver's side headlight and bent the hood. It would have been way worse had Steven not been paying attention and was trying to reverse himself!

Then, as he was heading home, I was getting everything ready and noticed a bunch of water on the counter by our microwave...turns out, the air conditioner is leaking all over inside the house now! So, I switched it off and cleaned up.

Luckily, the kid who hit Steven has insurance...
And my dad is currently installing an even better air conditioner as I write!

So, bad...but good...

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Park Day

This was last weekend (I know I'm behind), but we spent about an hour at the park enjoying some Subway and the sunshine. Here's a few pics from that:

Yes, he's a grown man...just silly!

Our dear friend Sarah and her big, beautiful smile!

One of very few pictures of Marlee and I together. I love my little chunk!

She was sitting on Sarah's legs enjoying the sunshine!

My handsome Steven...**swoon**

Happier..I promise!

This morning I drug myself to my alcohol therapy class (yes, still doing them for my DUI almost 2 years ago) and I wasn't really looking forward to really being awake just yet after yesterday. But we started talking...and we wrote timelines. Above the line is positive things, below negative things. I was amazed to see that I could only think of 2 negative things to put on my timeline. 1. Divorce 2. DUI.

This all kind of slapped me in the face. I worry, fret, stress over everything, but in all reality, my life is pretty stinkin' good! Thankfully, this lifted my spirits!
Another happy thing, I stepped on the scale this morning before my shower thinking that maybe I'd lost a few ounces and I won't be freaking out as much! Well, I lost that stupid extra 3lbs that scared me yesterday! Thank goodness! Not to mention, I was down 4ounces from last weeks weight...must have been retaining some silly water!
Soooo 193.2...not what I want it to be...but its going to all change in the next couple weeks! I have to get some motivation so that I can keep up with Steven and Keque once he's here!
And just because I've been super's some pictures for your visual pleasure:

She's kind of goofy in this little play mat! I love watching her in the distorted, cheap mirror!

Milky white skin...but it's just soooo stinkin' cute over that pudgy, boob belly! :)
And who can resist a dimply little butt! (She's going to kill me in about 16 years!)

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Another wasted Tuesday...

So, I should be sharing happy weight-loss news...but I'm not...again...

I think it's stress...

But I'm up another 3lbs...


Monday, August 16, 2010


My about to turn into a sitcom...

I'm not kidding you...

Marlee's Godfather, and Steven's "little brother" from California, is coming August 31st!

The title of our new sitcom: Two tattooed men, one woman, and a baby (it's a working any better ideas?!)

The fun part is that he's coming on a one-way ticket. We have no idea if or when he'll return to good ole Stockton, California.

I'm excited...truly...but also fairly stressed.

Keque plans to look for work...which there's not much...but in the meantime, I'll still be the only one with an income in our house. Not to mention, again, we live in 420 square feet and adding another 200+ pound man to the living space will be quite interesting.

All the negative aside though, I'm excited. From our short text conversations, Keque and I get along well. And I can't wait for Steven to have that very close friend with him again!

So, it'll be interesting...

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

I'm trying... breakfast this morning, I had yogurt with some granola! (it was actually noon...but it was my first meal)

I packed in my purse for work a banana and peanut butter sandwich (we need some lunch meat), a pudding cup (I might eat that), and a bag of baby carrots. I also was sure to grab my Nalgene so that I could just drink tons of water instead of getting a pop!!!

It's Employee Appreciation Week and we had ice cream sandwiches I splurged and had one!!! Now, I think I'd better skip that pudding cup....

I'm trying..really, I am....

I think it's really the birth control shot (not trying to find an excuse). They warned me! They said it'll increase appetite but to just eat more veggies and fruit and drink tons of water! Guess in my head that turned into, "eat tons of cookies and pop and whatever"!

But...again, I'm trying...

Tuesday, August 10, 2010


So, I'm supposed to have all these measurements and great progress to share with you!

But alas, I don't...

My weight has jumped up 3lbs since last week! (I think it may be due to my first period since the baby).

And because I saw that dreaded 193.6 on the scale this morning (while I was no clothes to blame it on), I've now downed 2 pops and a candybar here at work!!! What the heck is wrong with me!?

I was doing so well...I even had a salad with cottage cheese for lunch today...

But then I got the munchies...

How do I defeat the munchies without visiting the vending machine!? I packed a bagel...ate it...didn't help. I have chewing my second piece...hasn't helped...

Oi, I'm scared to step on the scale again for another week!!!!

Promise to myself: I will do better....

Friday, August 6, 2010

Things I love...

First off, HAPPY FRIDAY! I enjoy weekends sooooo much....especially now that we're all sober! They've become like little vacations...times to really be together...*sigh* I. Can't. Wait.

Now...things I love:

  1. When Marlee is at work with me while Dad goes to his meetings, she likes to sit in her carseat at the base of my stool to have some wiggle time. (I'm sure it gets rather boring watching Mom do work on the computer when she's in my lap). I look down at her while she's wiggling and she'll catch my eyes...I'll smile...she'll smile...and then she'll start talking to me. I love this one-on-one time...and honestly, I can't wait for her to just laugh at me! :)
  2. This may seem ridiculous...but Carl's Jr.'s Cranberry Apple Walnut Chicken Salad just speaks to me. I really don't know how to express the deliciousness of this 300 calorie wonder! Just try it...please?!
  3. Sometimes when we're just laying in our bed watching movies (our bed is in our living room...which we converted to the that the bedroom can become the nursery/walk-in closet) Steven will reach his arm over and just place his hand on my side, my arm, my hip, somewhere...and that warmth, that touch, just makes me melt. I could stay in that moment for years!

There's my love for today...

Do you have any??

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Big needles defeat little legs...

Marlee had to get her 2 month shots today! Poor little thing!!

She was such a trooper though! I gave her a small amount of tylenol before we left and then the rest about an hour afterwards. I think she's doing alright through it all!

Steven had to step out of the room while they did it otherwise he could have very likely punched the nurse!

Marlee cried on the first one...screamed on the second one...then calmed a little as I switched sides and then screamed for the fourth one...

Seriously, I was going to burst into tears myself! But I didn't...I was strong for her!

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Catching back up...

First off, yes, I know, I forgot to do any of my measurements or weight yesterday! :( FAIL! I've also forgotten this morning again because well, frankly, we've been running around like chicken's with our heads cut off! Sooo...maybe tomorrow...maybe...

Secondly, we have toads. Big, fat, lazy toads. It comes with living in the country. Not really a huge deal except that my silly dog likes to pee on them! YEP...he sniffs them...picks on them...and then pees all over them!!! Weirdo!

Well, we have a smart toad! See, in our hot weather things tend to dry out very easily..including these poor toads. One in particular decided that it would be best to sit underneath our air conditioner where it drips and enjoy the excess water! Now that's just using what little brains he has! And gives us quite a laugh!

Lastly, today is Marlee-bug's 2 month birthday!!! HAPPY 2 MONTHS LIL MISS!

I can't believe how much she's grown in this time. She's long and now filling out...she's changing every single day flip-flopping between looking like me and looking like Steven. It's so fun to see what she'll do new each day as well!

Here's a picture feast of her from last night:

Big yawns...and pudgy arms!

Who doesn't love that cute little mouth and a wink!?
She's getting that beautiful "splash" in the middle of her eyes like Steven and I have!

I'm learning manual settings on my camera and am able to get great close-up shots. I just love her!

Something else must have been more interesting! (I need to get my eyebrows waxed badly...and I, unfortunately, am battling some nasty acne since giving birth!)

...and then she we still don't have a good picture! haha

She's so beautiful :)

Any random photoshoot wouldn't be complete without a drunken smile!

Dad loves his Punky-bug so much!

Fall in love...I know you are! ;)

Monday, August 2, 2010

Just call me Martha...maybe...

Today, we got officially (and I mean officially because the money was put on the card) approved for food assistance! Seriously, it was like a weight was lifted off my shoulders.

I've always wondered what it would be like to have a fully stocked that I could actually try recipes on a whim with...

I guess maybe I'll know now!!! Maybe I won't feel like a tub of lard at the end of the day because I've eaten dollar store cookies, frozen pizza, and ramen noodles all day....maybe I'll actually know what it's like to have a complete meal...


Just call me Martha...maybe...(give me a few months to figure out how to cook first)