Monday, April 14, 2008

Quality dating????

Is there such thing as quality dating???
I've had a couple dates with All About Singles..and they're nice people...but its the same story as online dating. No one seems to get that I'm mature...I've been married...I'm just looking for a quality relationship with someone. Someone that will adoringly look at me without thinking how I look without my clothes on.

I want someone to keep me intellectual company as well as physical company. Not really needing the sexual contact..but needing the comfort around one another to hold kiss on the feel wanted in a deeper way....

I think I'm just talking nonsense now...

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Thinking with change in my head..

The title kind of states two things: I'm thinking while counting the amounts and the coin change are in my well as...I'm thinking that I should make some serious..SERIOUS..changes in my life.

Yes, I've invested a fair amount of money into this dating thing..and thus far, it's been alright. I've only gone out with two people and have hung out with the second person a second time. As much as I hate the fact that I'm shelling out all kinds of money just to basically make new friends...I'm excited about it still! (not sure why)

The other funny thing is that I still have very honest, sincere plans to move to Portland in the next couple years!!! I HAVE to...not just WANT to..but HAVE to. I really need to get out of Colorado for an extended amount of time. Give myself the chance to really rely on only me as well. But again, I'm shellin' out the money for what then!?


I'm also wondering if it'd be worth it to kind of...well, become celibate... Its not like I NEED it...I'm just kind of there when it comes down to it actually...So...Hmm...Maybe I will...Probably actually...