Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Fa-twit-space Me?!

Do you ever wonder how in the world people can basically "live" through social networking sites?!

I understand that in our fabulous 21st century it's almost normal to live our lives out on the internet.

I blog because it's easy on here and I enjoy other people reading what I write! So much for "diaries" these days!

But when someone threatens to delete me as their friend like it's going to hurt my feelings, I just laugh!!!

I think it's hilarious that so many relationships are based off a false reality!

There's no point to it...

None...

I'm on Facebook because I have friends internationally that I would like to keep in touch with. I'm rarely on MySpace anymore because it's become an advertisement haven and nothing too enjoyable. Twitter confuses the f**k out of me, so I don't even attempt much past logging in every 6 months and writing a "tweet" that says something along the lines of, "I still don't understand this silly website!"

In the end of all this, I'm sad to report I lost a Facebook friend this week...haha..who am I kidding?! I'm not sad at all!!! Because in reality here, it doesn't mean a darn thing to me! Whew...I'm glad I live in the real world!

Friday, February 18, 2011

Little Miss Marlee and Me

She's my little minion...

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Productive mornings...

You know what I currently love more than anything (well, not more than Marlee of course!)!?

Productive mornings...
I love that when I get up and around by 8:30 am I am able to get the house cleaned, dishes done, food cooked for breakfast and lunch, showered and ready, all by 11:30am! It's amazing! Oh yeah, and I work out in there too!!!
It brightens my day so much!
Maybe the amazing weather we're having is to blame...I guess we'll get the test when the snow comes back! I hope it doesn't. I hope that silly groundhog was right and we're going to have Spring 6 weeks early!

This little girl wants some Spring-time outside love!

Friday, February 11, 2011

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Refreshing...

It's refreshing to down 50oz of water while I'm at work...

It's refreshing to start my day with oatmeal, peanut butter, eggs, and a banana...

It's refreshing to have Steven text back "Hello babe!" when I've simply sent "Hi"...

It's refreshing to see the sun sparkling off the fresh snow on a cold Colorado winter day...

It's refreshing to blog again...seriously...

This is all today! I can't believe how good it feels to be in the right place and right state of mind for the first time in a couple of weeks at least. I'm happy today. And that's BIG!

Marlee is struggling with a fever that we think is from her teething. I feel really bad for her but I'm secretly enjoying the extra snuggles because she just wants to cling to us. I just want that darn tooth to pop through so we can go back to playing "stand-up" and teaching her the wonders of moving!

I wanted to change my banner today. I wanted to add photos to this post. But alas, I've forgotten my memory card! Figures! I hope to remember tomorrow because I have a mess of very cute photos from the past few days! Marlee really loves the camera. I think the love is mutual!

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Good/Bad Rollercoaster! AHHHH!

I'm so tired of this good day then bad day rollercoaster...

On a good day, I love thinking about Marlee and me carving the world out together! About me being the BEST role model she'll ever have because I'm strong and confident and giving her everything she wants and needs.

On a bad day, I want her to have essentially the "American dream". I want her to have her mom and her dad under one roof and happy together. I cry wanting this so bad...

I can't keep doing this rollercoaster. I need to really get the good days to take over and if things do work out in the "American dream" favor, then wonderful! If they don't, then that's okay too because I'm happy being a single mom!

I just want to get a handle on life as it is. It's going to be hard. It's going to be the worst time ever in my life, but at the same time I should be able to grow from this. Be the STRONGEST, HAPPIEST, HEALTHIEST version of me that I've ever known.

*sigh* I wish I thought like this all the time...

Friday, February 4, 2011

HAPPY 8 MONTHS!

My dearest Marlee is 8 months old today! I can't believe it's that time already!

I fail cause I don't have any recent photos of her on my computer...

I'm really a terrible paparazzi! I should work on this!

She's 19lbs...

In case you thought I was dead...

...I'm not!

I'm alive...in a whirlwind of craziness that is life! I can't believe the things I'm going through right now...

Relationship on the rocks...but not...all at the same time! I don't even understand it!

Marlee is a wiggling, moving, ball of brattiness! Spoiled rotten by her Daddy and her Grandma who pick her up the second she fusses! I guess I'm the "mean mommy" who lets her cry when I'm in the shower even! OH WELL!

I lost weight last week. 1.1 lbs...I lost weight this week. 1.3 lbs... I hope it still keeps coming off!

It's cold...snowy...wintery...wonderful! I love cuddling in my nice warm house! It's amazing! :)

*sigh* Life..so many ups and downs!