Monday, October 12, 2009

Am I just hormonal?!?!?!

Sooo...in further development with the bitchy co-worker...I'm finding myself in a tough spot...not sure if it's hormones governing my thoughts or if these are really valid?! Someone HELP!!!

That same bitchy co-worker is in the process of adopting a baby in place of not being able to conceive. She's going through a private adoption...and the baby will be born in February. She already knows it's a girl..which causes some mixed feelings right there (will talk about in a min)...and is constantly talking to me about it.

Now, where my craziness comes into play is that I'm uber frustrated with her always telling me things like "Our daugther's going to be cute though...all of her kids have red hair and bright blue eyes." or "I need not be so hard on my self. I am so afraid she is going to change her mind...ugh. Need to focus on positive karma."...Now I have no problem talking her through the positive thinking and reminding her that she must stay calm and collected through it...but in the same breath, I don't need to hear things like the first quote...I don't want to think about it that much right now because it hurts me...it hurts that she can say those things to me...but I have to watch what I say!!! That she never asks me how I am doing!!!!

I don't know...again, maybe I'm just being hormonal...

Okay, for the other thing...since they know it's a girl...then she already calls the baby Monroe...which is what they're naming her....but that's the name Steven and I want for our little girl....soooooo...if we have a girl too..they will both be Monroe...and I don't know how I'm supposed to feel about that... My heart kind of sank last week when I found out...

*sigh* Any help...from anyone??? Am I just crazy????

2 comments:

Jackie said...

Did you mention the name to her before? I learned not to do that. My mom named her dog Zoe -.-

Kendra said...

Haha, Well, we've always talked about names and what not because she was trying for sooo long before this adoption thing. And we both liked that name...I told Merv..and he fell in love with it...so I think all around its a mutual oops...

She thinks it'd be cute to have 2 Monroe's...but I'm not sure I feel the same way....