Thursday, October 8, 2009

What did I do!?

Why do people find some way, in all their own life's stresses, to just tear me down!?

My co-worker...while I understand far too well her situation...decided to rip into me today about how she thinks my situation is wrong and how if she were me she wouldn't be pregnant and that it's wrong of me to get government assistance...blah blah blah...

Anyways, here's the true breakdown of me vs her right now:

~~Applying for Medicaid...yes, its tax payers money paying for all the things I'll need, but I don't work enough hours to get my companies health insurance and other outside insurance is far too expensive.

**In her situation, she's worked for our company for 9 years...meaning she doesn't know what its like to struggle to pay when you're super sick...

~~Living in a small, rented house with Steven, our two dogs, and my cat.

**She owns her own 3 bedroom 2 bathroom home and two brand new cars with her husband and 3 dogs

~~I'm very much in debt and live paycheck to paycheck because I don't have much assistance and am working my butt off to pay as much as I can off in a timely fashion.

**She keeps a minimum amount in her bank account and her parents helped her pay off all her debt years ago...

NOW..I HATE talking about her like this...she and her husband have been trying for over a year now via fertility drugs and everything...and in the meantime, I've just been here! But when I WAS married we tried for a year and nothing...so I really do know where she's been but I've never once talked bad about the things she's confided in me...

BUT, here I am...getting ripped completely apart because I'm in a tough spot as it is and now I have an unplanned pregnancy to deal with....well, in all honesty, I'm so happy about it that the stress doesn't even tear me down anymore...Maybe I'm just crazy and being a total bitch posting this..but I was sooo hurt earlier...

She told me things like, "I would get rid of the dogs"...."I don't agree with your situation, it's bad timing"...."Your man isn't working so how are you supposed to provide"...blah blah blah blah....

REDUCED ME TO TEARS!!!!!

THEN...I called Steven to tell him what happened and so he texted her to let her know that he doesn't appreciate her tearing us down like that....needless to say, once she came back to work I got this screamed at me, "Tell Merv to stop fucking texting me or I'll file harrassment charges on him!"

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Fuck people today :(

3 comments:

Jackie said...

:( I'm sorry. Maybe she's just upset and frustrated because she thinks that she's in the perfect situation for adding a baby to her life and is angry that you got pregnant and she didn't.

And the getting rid of the dogs comment.. sorry, but that's one of my biggest irks is when people don't realize how much animals are a part of families. That's like getting rid of a child!

Don't let her bring you down! And besides, all her arguments are null and void because you have been trying to make things better, the economy is just shit.

Jackie said...

God doesn't want her to spawn cause she's a bitch. - love mike

Kendra said...

Haha...thanks guys! :) She's actually adopting..and I told her that maybe she can't conceive because God wants her to be there for this other baby...but whatever...I'm over it! Just disappointing that people act like that....