Weekends are interesting...

Friday night was the finals for January's Rockstar of the Month karaoke contest! Guess what?! I won!!! :) I was really surprised...and really, all the contestants (including me) were getting pretty drunk! haha

Saturday was a crazy night of drinking. We watched the UFC fights at Buffalo Wild Wings with Matt and Pedro. It was fun cause they're both into MMA like Steven is! So it was entertaining. I wanted to go home after the fights but the guys all wanted to hit up a couple other bars. It ended the night in Steven quite drunk and me frustrated. I'm just ready for adult fun...no more of this college whatever, bar lifestyle! DONE! We'll see if I can really hold to that though...I'm too poor and too grown to have it all still!

Sunday, we went to my parents for a yummy lasagna dinner and then watched the Super Bowl. I made the executive decision to stay there for the game instead of going to someone else's house because Steven had been drunk the night before and he's sick on top of it all. Plus, I didn't want to deal with the problems yet again! I also needed the time to do my laundry. Got that done...went home...and went to bed.

On a much LIGHTER note, I have a couple pics of our puppies!!! Ziona opened her eyes this weekend and Steven just called to tell me that she's walking around on all four of her legs!! YAY! :)

The first one is Ziona and the second one is King Tut (Steven is holding him too). I'll hopefully get a few more pictures tonight when I go to pick up Steven at Eric's after work! :)

The things you learn....

So its very interesting the things you learn about someone once you begin living with them.

The other night Steven and I were laying in bed. I was super stressed out and said something about it...I waited for his response but it didn't come until about 2 minutes later. That's when he said, "I'm sorry, I wasn't ignoring you. I was praying." I didn't say anything...I was just like wow...that's great!!! :) He rolled over and put his arms around me and we started to talk about why I was stressed and what not...he certainly wasn't ignoring me at all! But, the key here, he prays...that's fantastic.

Aside from that, Roxie, my adopted kitty, is on her way out of this life. For some reason she's not recovering from a bite she received on the base of her tail. The past two days she's been losing her bowels and unable to move very much at all. It's really sad cause she's such a great, sweet cat. This morning I was about to leave and knealt down by the cat carrier and started to pet her head. Her breathing was very short and labored and she didn't move an inch. I rubbed her head and told her that I love her and she let out a little meow. :\ I guess we all have our time.

Then beyond that, Steven and I have a couple puppies that we're adopting in the next 6 weeks. Our friend Eric's dog gave birth to 6 puppies a couple weeks ago, and we've fallen in love with two of them. One (mine) is a little girl with three black spots on her butt and a black tail except for the tip is white. She has black and brown markings on her face and the rest of her is white...well, its turning grey now because they're half black lab and half blue heeler (sp). Her name is Ziona. Steven's is a boy that is mainly covered in big black spots. He too has a fun tail. But he's not turning grey like Ziona. His name is King Tut, but we'll call him Tut. They're both the biggest of the litter right now...and have graced us with their voices already!!! In fact, Tut was laying around growling sooooo cute last night!!! :) We fell in love even more! haha They'll look a bit like the dog posted here when they're grown! :)

As for the rest of my life, I've applied to work as a Merchandiser here at Coca-Cola as well as my job as Route Process Admin. I mentioned something to the Merch managers and they seemed pretty pleased to have me apply. So *cross your fingers* that I get this position and I'll be working the two part time gigs for Coke! :)

Falling together...

It seems as though everything kind of has its place right now. I wake in the morning next to Steven, get ready for the day (as does he), generally run him into town with me and take him to Eric's where he's semi-productive on his job searching, go to work, then get off work and pick up Steven and head home. Seems like a slight bit of a life...not sure though!

I'm surprised at how comfortable I am with Steven in the house. Things really aren't too cramped...although, it helps that even before he always stayed with me...so now it's just a few extra hours that we're together as well! I just wish he could find a job... :(

Aside from all that, I have found that most of my friends around here are drama-stricken 24/7!!! It's crazy!! Therefore, Steven and I are going to probably take a sabbatical from them. Just some time together...get our lives situated even more and really find OUR center instead of continually helping others from spiraling out of control! We'll see...

I miss my friends :( The ones from HS and college that have all just MOVED AWAY! Maybe it's my turn to move away...

A point of..return?

I've been failing to keep up on posting in here...but I really thinkI need to.

Some sort of outlet needs to happen...

There have been a few changes in my life....ups, downs, all arounds...but I think all in all, things are going well!!!

I don't particularly have a starting point to write about right now...I could write about my living situation. Yes, that's what I'll do:

Well, I live in a house...420 sq feet..with two cats and now my boyfriend of 6 weeks. It was never an intention for him to come stay with me, but things out of our control happened within his family and his mom and him had to move from the apartment they were in. His mom now lives with a family friend (or is currently staying with) while my boyfriend stays with me. I'm not sure if this is going to be a permanent thing or just temporary.
His situation alone is cause for concern though. He doesn't work because there aren't any possibilities currently, nor does he have a car because of silly issues he left in California that were supposed to be taken care of. So..he's there...watching movies...all day long. Granted, he does help around the house...but I'm just not sure if that's enough.
My income is a second cause for concern. I make enough to essentially keep myself happy and my bills generally paid. But as for him, I don't know how he eats all day or what...and this just might be a strain with only my income. Hmm...we'll see I suppose.

My biggest concern (beyond those two major ones) is that this is all going to put a strain on such a NEW relationship. I was utterly content living alone but at the same time I didn't want to see him homeless...so it just kind of happened. The both of us enjoy the same things and definitely live our lives in the same realm of morals/values and whatever. I just don't want to end up tired of being around him someday because he's always there... The last guy I lived with was my ex-husband..and well, look how that turned out!! ha! Again, we'll see...

Ok, Neglect last time..full on forgotten this time...

Alright, so it's been a while.

Still at Coke...
Live in Lucerne, in my own little house...
Live with Ewok and Roxie...
Dating Justin...

My joint pain and what not was never figured out. Tons of medical bills later, I'm still in fear every day of my body falling apart. I don't let it stop me though! I keep on truckin'...

In searching for some sort of hobby, I've found myself addicted to the joys of singing in public. That's right, karaoke! I pretty much know where to go sing every day of the week...

Now it's time to search for my muse once again, for the writing bug has been nibbling at my fingers...

Neglect...

It appears that most people have neglected this blog. So have I...

My current state is pain...
Awful....horrible....unbearable....pain...

From where? I don't know....not a damn clue!! I got sick again with this allergic reaction to something...only this time it was coupled with a viral infection that attacks my joints. FUN! Well, at this point, I've taken some drugs to get rid of the allergic reaction...but the joint pain is all back. Back 10x worse!

I haven't hardly been able to walk the past couple of days. I just start bawling when I even sit down on the toilet! WTF?!

I'm not sure what's going on...

On a happier note, being with Miles again is a positive outlook on my life. I'm working right now...that's it...I'm not going back to school any time soon....but I'm moving out and I'm going to enjoy my life. Miles is there when he can be..and that's fine with me! I need that sort of independence too.

Seriously changing me...

I'm employed bodybuilding.com and a new friend Ali as my inspiration and help for my body transformation. I WILL DO THIS! I can't keep telling myself that I'm going to do it and then don't. Ali is going to hold me accountable and ask me every day if I've done what I promised.

Today is DAY 1.

I've done what I promised (I believe). Ran 1 mile (well, almost the whole thing) and did 10 sets of 50 crunches. That's right, 500 crunches....whew!

My diet is going to be eggs and toast in the morning, salad for breakfast, and chicken and veggies for dinner. Keeping this strict!! Not going to falter! I CAN'T!

:)