Tailspins aren't as fun as they sound!

So, it's funny that I wrote the last blog.

The very next day we got the announcement that they are shutting down Greeley Coca-Cola. We knew it was coming. Things have gotten incredibly boring around the office and so, luckily, I'd been searching the job world for some time.

The bad news is that the doors close March 9th.

Yeah, you read that right, ONE stinkin' month to decide the fate of my next few years!

Not even a month actually, because we're supposed to let the folks in Denver know if we're transferring by February 27th...

Shit...19 days...

I can't decide my future in 26 years, let alone 19 days!!! WTF?!

Soooo...here I am....

Spinning....

Not really knowing what to do.

I have options...

OPTION 1: Transfer to Denver Coca-Cola...move to Denver...get my city life...but leave my family and friends and school behind (school for the moment)
OPTION 2: Find a new job...stay here...still go to UNC this summer...
OPTION 3: Take my severance...apply for unemployment...get student loans...go to school and live off loans...

Option 3 is a little too scary for my liking...

Option 2 seems the logical choice....

Option 1 would give me what I crave with a wild dose of struggle...

AHHHH!!!!

Adding more confusion to an already spinning wave, I've got an interview with State Farm tomorrow morning. This would lead to Option 2. And I think would be easiest on everyone involved in my life.

"Ok..." you say, "What's the tailspin for then!?"

Well...I still really crave that city life...
Still really want to raise Marlee in the diverse culture a city has to offer.
I still want to wear mismatched things and not worry about what other people think! (Like today, red tanktop with a mauve cardigan...sure it looks at pretty and Valentine-y...but people probably think I'm blind around these parts!)

Oh and don't forget my yellow painted fingernails to go with the red and mauve...yeah...I'm colorful! But I love it!

I'm digging...digging deep into the depths of my lost and confused heart and soul (that's a lot of D-words and "and"s)...I just want to make the right decision for the rest of my life.

Another sidenote: I do understand that once I'm finished with school in 3-4 years, I can move to a city then...and by then Marlee will be school age so it won't be as difficult because I won't have to pay the crazy prices of daycare...

Do I even make sense anymore!?

Shit...spinning...damn you tailspin!