Friday, May 28, 2010

3 DAYS...WOWZA!

Okay, so at the 3 days til due date mark...I'm feeling AWESOME! Not necessarily completely energized...but man am I doing good! I'm not drained...I don't feel like poo at all...and really the little aches and pains don't bug me one bit!

I'm hoping this means labor is coming...

ALSO, the baby is moving lots today and Steven says that means its coming too!

The cramping is nearly non-existant today...so not sure if that's good or what...

It's 92 degrees outside...warmest day yet this year! And I'm sooooo not ready for it! Thankfully, the rest of the weekend will be back down in the low 80's. I would die if I had to be pregnant through the summer! Poor girls! :(

Thursday, May 27, 2010

4 days...must be a nice waterbed...

I'm 4 days away from my due date.

Today, I'm feeling the cramping...which is a plus. That means it's even closer! Buuuutttt....this morning's doctor's appt didn't shed ANY light on my situation. She didn't even comment on the size of the baby's head!!! WTF?! Oh well...I guess maybe I should have asked questions...but I'm really shy...

I don't want to go overdue...

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Still pregnant...

Yep...still no baby...ugh...

She's moving quite a bit this afternoon which makes it a little more tolerable...but I'm still in pain and still just want to sleep...

I'm half hoping that tomorrow at my doc appt they'll look at the measurements and decide to induce or even give me a c-section! As much as I've been opposed to both, I'm really just VERY done with this whole thing!

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Big heads and miserable mommies...

The closer it all gets, the more anxious I become...

But that's to be expected, right?

Yesterday's ultrasound shed nothing more than the fact that my little bug has a big head...and long legs...

We were hoping to get a confirmation of gender...but no such luck. She wouldn't cooperate and was snug-as-a-bug sleeping in her little warm waterbed. I loved seeing that big ole head, plump tummy, and speedy heartbeat...But oh how I wish I could just hold my baby right now!

On that note, I'm miserable. Exhausted. Completely worn down.

Physically, my hips and pelvic bone run my mobility. Some days I'm okay to go for walks...other days I can't hardly turn over in bed without wincing in pain.

Mentally, I have no brain power left. Pregnancy brain is in full affect and I can't help but forget the most minute things in my life anymore.

Emotionally, I'm a wreck. I want to cry...scream...fall apart. But I know I can't. I did a couple days back and its way too hard to pull myself together...so I should just stick with preventative measures...

Somewhere out there is the means to get this labor thing going...but I have no idea what it is....

God, please let nature happen today!

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Time..you needn't stand still...

Generally people want time to slow down and stand still for a moment. And I'll probably be one of those re-thinking my current motives...but as of right now, I want time to pass as quickly as possible!

I'm not quite sure I'm totally ready for the birth to actually get here yet...but rather just Monday!

Today's doctors appointment brought smiles to my face.

First off, we were able to strap into the monitor and listen to my baby's heartbeat for a solid 15 minutes...and then we were given the news that we'll be having an ultrasound on Monday afternoon!!! **Insert super excited face**

We haven't had the chance to "see" our little bug for 19 weeks now! I'm really just wanting to know for sure that it is our little Marlee-bug and not our tough little Keque! Certainty is what I'm striving for...

Once that's figured out, I can super-nest and then be more than mentally prepared for all this. Ask anyone around me, I'm fearing the gender more than anything at all! I'm not even fearing the pain or the timing...nothing...just whether or not it's a girl!!!

So, Time...please let Monday get here quickly! The anticipation is going to kill me...

(along with the exhaustion and general feeling of ick...I now completely understand why women start their maternity leave before the baby is here)

Monday, May 17, 2010

Blog nesting...

Yep, you noticed, I'm sure! I'm nesting on my blog...haha

I'm going to change up my banner too so that it's a bit more happy and springy and new-life supportin'! haha

2 weeks...that's it!!!! WAAAAHOOOOO!

Friday, May 14, 2010

More wedding photos


First kiss...for some reason it doesn't want to upload correctly.


Best man Jimmy and bride dancing




Stuffing each other's faces...haha



Cutting the cake!




First dance





Groom and his momma!





Groom anxiously waiting for it all to begin!






Thursday, May 13, 2010

Can you believe it?!

18 days....

2 1/2 weeks...

18 fricken days...

Can you believe it?!

I never thought I'd get down to the "final countdown"...I never thought this in my wildest dreams!

I guess I just assumed that life would continue on and on and on and I would always be pregnant! But NOPE, so we'll have our little bug in our arms and I can't freakin' wait!!!

Sure, I'm nervous...in the am-i-really-going-to-know-exactly-what-to-do way....but then again, I'm OVERJOYED with the i-love-this-being-more-than-life-already feeling! Can...not...wait!

Aside from all that, we will endure struggles as the world of one income is back...but I'm happy to know and have faith that we can make it through anything! :)

OH..and another thing I can't wait for...posting a FAMILY PHOTO. :)

Friday, May 7, 2010

Strength..where are you???

"You never know how strong you are until being strong is the ONLY choice you have." ~Unknown

I'm not even sure where to start in my thought process. All I know is that I'm tired of being kicked over and over and over again when things seem to be settling in for us...

Steven was in the perfect position...helping troubled youth deal with life...

He is fit for that type of work...

His heart is huge...his experience is personal...his words are grounded and understanding...

But for some reason, Steven's boss's boss called yesterday saying that something came up, the state sent a 4-page letter, and he has to let him go. **insert shocked face**

This coming not even 24 hours after his fellow employees praised him for his help at the facility and with the kids...

Well, turns out, there's a possibility that it might not even be Steven!!!! **insert another shocked face** The boss said there's some discrepansies that don't make sense...and they have to look into it...

Well, about a year and a half ago, his identity in California was stolen. It was HELL trying to get his license reinstated for Colorado because there was someone using his name and what not...WELL, we're hoping (crossing fingers) that this is the problem now. That they've uncovered stuff from that guy's past and not his...

Honestly, for the life of us, we can't think of anything vital that would cause them to just stop his employment...

All I can say now is that I'm hoping. And I'm trying to be the strength of both myself and Steven right now..not to mention hang onto this baby without stress so that she can peacefully come out when she's ready (hoping that's soon...)

Strength...please don't let me down...we need you...

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Wedding splendor....

So, being a wedding photographer is exhausting...seriously...

9 months pregnant doesn't help much either though...

Regardless of the aching feet, throbbing hips/pelvis, and all together run-down look...I loved it! I enjoyed capturing all the perfect moments in someone's happiness...and I'm looking forward to sharing this day with the bride and groom and anyone else who wants to see!!! I hope they're happy with the photos I was able to get.

Here are some of my favorites that I have editted so far:


I did capture the normal kiss in the ceremony...but I like this one...


The wedding party....my dearest Steven being the tall gentleman with no hair ;)



Lovely little family!!! :)




Just married...I love these shots!






They never stopped smiling at each other!





I love when laughter is incorporated into the ceremony!





Grandpa's are the best!






This is actually a friend of the family...but one of the cutest pictures ever!!! I must admit, I didn't take this photo...I taught the bride/groom's two daughters how to take quick pics with my camera and this is one they came up with!!! I'm thinkin' somebody has a future in photography!