Lack-o-sleep...

Aren't there always those nights when you can't sleep because you're constantly thinking about things...I hate them...

Last night, was one of them.

I kept thinking about how much I wished my cat Ewok were home again. She seems to have adopted my grandma and it makes me kind of sad. I guess its better than her just running away. But I'm sure it's because she hates the dogs...and my grandma will give her food. I don't know, I just really needed her last night. :(

Also, I was thinking about my stupid disease and how its so troubling. Especially when I have no health insurance... I need to get a bit of blood tests done but I don't have the $600+ to shell out in order to get them and have them sent off. BUT, if I don't have these tests, then there's really no way to tell what's causing my Chronic Urticaria. I was also thinking about my follow up appointments with Dr. Pace...that's going to cost another $120 just for him to tell me another round of drugs to possible help...So, I don't know.

The next thing I was thinking about came about with money as well. Being the sole income in my house, it's hard to make any headway on my bills. The collectors just keep calling and I have nothing to tell them...well, except now that I've been sick and trying to figure this out and that's where my money goes. But that's not entirely true...what's true is that I'm neglecting it because I want Steven to be comfortable. I would do anything for him, he knows this, but it's definitely a strain on my funds. I really shouldn't complain about it because it's my own fault...I don't know...just makes things that much harder on me.

My DUI..well, I'm done with my education classes and now onto therapy classes. I keep paying on my fine, and I've finally given BI enough money to be set up on community service. So, now I have to call this lady at the Boys and Girls Club to see when I can get my community service done...but in the meantime, it seems like I've got things pretty well taken care of...but I still have a revoked license and have to have the interlock for two years at some point...I'm not sure how to even afford the insurance, or the interlock, or the new license...ugh...

I guess it all comes down to money issues...and that's why I'm looking for a second job and hopefully Steven can find one soon for himself!

In the meantime, it's cheap food, free poker, and $1 movies for us!

Well, after being on my Rx for over a week now...I'm seeing the hives come far and few between but that crazy itching it still there. Bothers me, but it's better than it was! I hope there's some other way to fix this...and fix it completely!

Aside from that, it's Stampede time. So we've been busy spending time down there. Thus far we've gone to the Free Stage to see Bob Purcell, wandered around the whole venue, got free box tickets to see Big & Rich and VIP passes so we ate and drank free that whole night, and now we're just looking forward to a rodeo this week and then Kid Rock on Friday night! :) It's been a pretty great year so far...

On another note, I can't believe it's almost July already!!! July means Eaton Days, Cheyenne Frontier Days, Steven's birthday, Independence Day, etc. It'll be a busy but fun month for sure!!!

Doc's visit 2009

Well, after no answers at all last year for what was taking over my skin and body...I've finally receieved some insight!

I visited an allergist on Friday...he figured out that I have Chronic Urticaria (hives)...ok...he also thinks that they're linked autoimmune. So...diagnosis..Autoimmune Chronic Urticaria.

Next step, take powerful antihistamines and see if that helps...if no, then go another route...but gotta do blood tests to figure out specifically if it's autoimmune...possibly thyroid related...etc...

But at least it has a name...

Itchy & Scratchy Show...

For some reason I'm plagued again with the hives and what not from last year!! It's horrible..I think it's worse this year...

Last night, I didn't get to bed until 5am and that was after taking some Claratin, taking a bath, then taking some Zyrtec when the Claratin didn't work, then covering myself with anti-itch lotion that really just felt like it was aiding in the hive growth, then driving to Greeley to buy some Benadryl, coming home and taking a shower after taking Benadryl, then laying in bed crying....finally, I took some Flexerol which is a muscle relaxer simply because I couldn't sleep for the life of me...

My mom always says that the more tired an antihistamine is making you, then the better it's working...well, I wasn't getting tired last night from all that...so nothing was working!!! Right now though, I've taken a second dosage of Benadryl and while it's keeping the hives at bay it's not relieving any of the itch!!!

Therefore, I'm currently trying not to fall asleep here at work and I'm scratching at nothing on my skin...just making it burn...ugh...

Someone...PLEASE...fix me!!!!

AHHHH...

Can we just add insult to injury?!?!?!

I'm a freakin' mess because of my skin...it's doing that stupid hive thing all over again this year!!! I'm covered in itchy, burning hives that never go away...

PLUS, Steven calls me today to say that his job pretty much forced him to quit..I'm not sure what happened. But now we're down to one income, yet again!!!

Why can't things just start going up for us?!?!?!?! WHY?!

Late Night at the Animal ER...

Well, Hercules got hurt last night...

He got a little too "excited" some how and his whole junk (shaft and glands) came out and got stuck out....

We had to take him in to get it put all back in...which ended up being a whole fiasco!!!

But he's better now...

And now he's getting neutered on Tuesday so it doesn't happen again...even though we never wanted him neutered...

Here is he, icing his thingy! haha

June Goals...

On SparkPeople, one of my groups has decided to do a goal challenge for June. I have three main goals right now that I think will make a huge difference in my life if I stick to them!

My Goals:
1. Hold true to a workout routine (I'm much less stressed, worried, lethargic, etc if I'm working out regularly)
2. Manage my money better (use those envelopes we made to set money aside..and keep a balance in my savings account)
3. Clean every day (I'm turning into my mom as to where I want everything clean and just so...but it needs to be done since my house is so small)

I'm hoping that by sticking to them I can get a jump start into Summer and the next two years essentially so that things will fall into place just the way we want them to!

Wish me luck!

Tis the season...

Tis the season for big, billowing clouds...
For storms to light up our skies...
For hot dogs to scent the air...
And cracking cans to whistle in our ears...
Tis the season for Summer fun!

Three weeks away and its officially summer! I can safely say that I've never been this excited about the weather and the season as I am this year. I don't know what it is..maybe because Steven enjoys the outdoors so much and I'm looking forward to having my own yard to deal with and dogs to have out and about with us...Not sure...

Another milestone is about to hit as well, Steven and my six month anniversary. I know, I know, not that big compared to people's years that they've spent with a person!! But really, these months have flown by and we've been through so many ups and downs with ourselves and other people, that I have no fears about this relationship becoming one of those that hits year markers too! I'm just excited to share so much with him! :)

It being JUNE 1st...ALREADY!...I'm looking at my calendar trying to see if there's anything major going on after this weekend. So far I've got Relay for Life this Friday and Saturday, a co-workers wedding on Saturday, and a birthday party Saturday night. Next weekend I've got a purse party to attend and a Summer party both on Saturday. After that, my dad's bday is on the 18th and I have Father's Day to celebrate with my dad and Steven on the 21st...
I just know its all going to fill up fast though! We'll see how that goes! :)